Self Destruct Hug

I self destruct every time i give myself a hug
with one pelvic shrug I've undone your selfish love
now who's the jealous one out on the corner trying to sell some fun
in between the hell and the hello mellow yellow sun

I walk my thoughts in blocks laughing at all your awful shops
watching pot stops right next to all the coffee cops
your blotchy spots hardly notice when the raunchy crawls
out from under the rock to shop at all your starchy malls

my stop watch heart is home to all the dirty things
your pretty model sings a song to brighten murky dreams
we let freedom ring till it goes to voicemail
i make the choice to stay hot on your moist trail

but I mostly fail, should have learned to swim
before I tried to sail, I'm tired as hell tied
to electrified wired nails my bed of bells always tries to stop dreams
and every time i walk back it seems I get my alarm clock cleaned

I'm mean, a little ball of darkness
trying to find new and creative ways to start shit
got my heart split, these bitches walk through their own dog shit
I sew different feelings together just to make the parts fit

I'm always missing pieces cuz this puzzle wreaks of jesus
so I wreak havoc to keep the tragic seamless
like a lyrical seamstress I see stress and need less
like a heathen hedonist wondering why hes feeling pist

they say he's fine he just seems pist
thats the consequence when you try to steal bliss
with real fists clenched my thirst for greatness never quenched
just another bench warmer with extraoridinarly pourous skin

I was born within lust and distrust christened with his blood
and its tough tryin to make a quick buck its all fucked
so i lie on this small rug
spittin out words to see what makes yall shrug...